Eudaimonia

I have finished all of the songs and am in the final stage of mixing. There will be 8 songs on the album as the number 8 is dear to me because it has always been my family number as my father was the 8th child out of 9 in his family. I should have everything done by the end of the day and will probably finish up the files for you all to download within the week. Hope you all still want to hear this fuckin thing after its taken me so long. I have really put myself out there on this album and haven’t filtered anything and even have lyrics that I can’t bring myself to talk about in every day life.  The quality of the album’s production was something that I wanted to be organic because of how It all was recorded on a very lo-fi set up and I spent a lot more time focusing on the overall feel of the album using a lot of field recordings taken from my visit in the hospital, in my parents neighborhood, near a lake, here in iowa city all recorded in the dark as I’ve felt so blind during a lot of points composing this album and the album is probably the darkest feeling album I have done, but also the most heartfelt and sentimental one as well. I hope someone out there can find some type of relation to some of the songs. If you do I would love to hear from you. If not, Thanks for listening. If you don’t listen then thanks for reading this far. And if you don’t read this, then you will never know and I thank you for letting me be.  If there is one thing I have learned through this all its to never let anyone tell you that you can’t, even when you are the one telling yourself it can’t be done.

Love, Zac

Quitting smoking is hard as hell at work. I got this though I will not falter I will stand my ground on this. Fuck a cigarette bruh!

Well shit tumblr friends, I’m quitting the green and the cigs starting today. I have planned on it for the past week just giving it a shot for my last semester in iowa city to see if I still have any free will or if I’m in over my head. I have quite a few reasons to motivate me, but I know it won’t be easy as I know myself and I will find someway to justify just one and then another, but this time I plan to stay strong, which I know i can do and have done before. Any advice from any of you who have been through this process would be appreciated, I know I will be just fine, but I will have to completely change my routine this next semester. Day one begins now! With that being said I will spend a lot more time recording and being productive now that I’m not sitting on my ass stoned all the time. Quitting cigarettes seems to be much harder though…… very addictive.

and It changed my life.

With that being said, if you have never heard the first cd that I recorded and co-wrote along with my 3 best friends. You can hear the 4 tracks of our band Self Assembled on this link. It is old material from a bunch of 12-13 year olds, but it is the foundation I build all of my solo material off of and I cant wait to see what will happen when we collaborate again. Thanks if you are reading the posts, I haven’t been very good about maintaining this blog like I said I would, but as I get less busy with school and work I like to get more busy on the internetzzzzzzzzzzzz <3 ZaCXxorzZZ

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I finally have a 5 day period of time dedicated to recording and playing a ton of gow3 for this thanksgiving break. Im excited to see what comes of it. I am not going to record any of the songs I have previously written because I hope to make this upcoming week a fully invested creative process. It will be therapeutic to just feel whatever comes to me because I have a lot to get off my chest before returning home for thanksgiving with my family. The album will def be finished over my winter break from classes. I am slowly but surely making the right steps to get my head straight and life goes on, still working alot to save up money and on my way to get my associates degree here in iowa city. I visited the art institute of Schaumburg and have decided that I will be moving out to the chicagoland area and pursuing a career in audio engineering. I’m very excited for the opportunity and the adventure ahead. I also have talked to my 3 best friends who are the people who initially helped to spark my undying love for music, in my first band, as a 13 year old kid. We all agreed that after all of these years being separated by our varying locations and secondary educational interests we all still have never lost the dream of pursuing music together. So I am happy to say that my first band, with the people I am most creatively comfortable with, will be recording an album as soon as I finish “Eudaimonia” I can’t tell you how excited I am to be reuniting with my closest friends to make music. There is no better feeling in the world. With that being said, if you

I have never been busier and I have never felt so drained. Drained in the sense that I have no energy, but also drained in the sense that I’m just not myself these days. Working 35 hours a week at near minimum wage and 20 hours of classes a week with subject matters that don’t truly interest me has numbed my perception of reality. I’m simply just not happy at the moment and I realize that my unhappiness is hindering my ability to capture the way I feel in a natural way in the recordings.

While I have struggled finding the right time to record, I have done a lot of work on the arrangements of eudaimonia and this process is always changing, I’m on the track to most likely do a 2 part album the 2nd half I have nearly done, I just need to record one more track that is in its final arrangement and the 1st half is taking much longer than I would like to arrange. Doing a conceptual album takes a lot longer than I thought it would especially when I have no one but myself to work with. This is one of the most eye opening processes I have ever experienced in my life. I am writing songs that are completely uncensored about things that I can’t really talk about to most people because I realize that most people don’t give a shit about their real feelings anymore. People just don’t want to talk about harsh realities or depression or deep love or being afraid or feeling unsure because it doesn’t always make others laugh or smile, but what is the use if the the thing making others laugh or smile is fake? I want the album to be the best that it can be in describing the way that I feel. This album is entirely 1st person and I feel that if I put all of this out there that there will be other people that feel the same way or can relate and they will stop hiding and FEEL. I’m at that point where I’m documenting a time in my life through music. Its like a photo album for my future self. The main reason I am releasing this material is to throw it out there as a question to anyone who takes the time to listen to it. Where do you think we can find Eudaimonia? Are we even close yet?

“Feeling is good.”

Love Zac

p.s. I will try and be better about posting more updates. I’m working on getting back to a good mental state where I can focus more on this album which I hope you all know is my number one priority even though things have been delayed.